Today was a great article from My Utmost for His Highest....

"The rich young ruler went away from Jesus speechless with sorrow, having nothing to say in response to Jesus’ words. He had no doubt about what Jesus had said or what it meant, and it produced in him a sorrow with no words with which to respond. Have you ever been there? Has God’s Word ever come to you, pointing out an area of your life, requiring you to yield it to Him? Maybe He has pointed out certain personal qualities, desires, and interests, or possibly relationships of your heart and mind. If so, then you have often been speechless with sorrow. The Lord will not go after you, and He will not plead with you. But every time He meets you at the place where He has pointed, He will simply repeat His words, saying, "If you really mean what you say, these are the conditions."

"Sell all that you have . . ." ( Luke 18:22 ). In other words, rid yourself before God of everything that might be considered a possession until you are a mere conscious human being standing before Him, and then give God that. That is where the battle is truly fought— in the realm of your will before God. Are you more devoted to your idea of what Jesus wants than to Jesus Himself? If so, you are likely to hear one of His harsh and unyielding statements that will produce sorrow in you. What Jesus says is difficult— it is only easy when it is heard by those who have His nature in them. Beware of allowing anything to soften the hard words of Jesus Christ.

I can be so rich in my own poverty, or in the awareness of the fact that I am nobody, that I will never be a disciple of Jesus. Or I can be so rich in the awareness that I am somebody that I will never be a disciple. Am I willing to be destitute and poor even in my sense of awareness of my destitution and poverty? If not, that is why I become discouraged. Discouragement is disillusioned self-love, and self-love may be love for my devotion to Jesus— not love for Jesus Himself."

Pretty Sweet, Huh.

So Im just sitting here doing a little work. I just wanted to point out that sometimes when you are tired you should not drink so much coffee. This is due to the fact that it will definately wake your entire body up.... except your mind. I need to free my mind. Free your mind. free it. free it all deep like.

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Im at work sitting next to alex ly and he is taking a nap while I write on my blog.





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Yeah! Crazy Times!! Just got back from Denver Colorado with the Fam. We went up to Montana also to do a little fly fishing in the river. It was great, we had this crazy guide named Griz that lived in a shack alongside of the mountain top without any electricity. Im pretty much convinced that he was the dude from silence of the lambs screaming for someone to put the lotion on their skin.... haha, just kidding, but seriously you know. :-D. Once down the river, I was reminiscing wih the guide, explaining to him how sweet it would be to throw dynomite into the water and catch the fish that way. So we keep floating down the river and after lunchtime, he comes out with these highly illegal seal bombs that are equivalent in size to a half stick of dynomite. I Freaked out, know that it was definately God's will for me to have this amazing controban in the riverside of Montana. Later on that day, after convincing the guide to show us what it meant to "shotgun" a beer, we decided to throw the dynomite in to the river... I picked up the stick.... lit it.... and.... and... Booooooooooooooooooooooooom!!!

oh, not in my hand, I forgot to mention that I actually threw the lethal weapon in to the river. No fish though... bummer. Is there spell check on this thing, because I forgot how to correctly form words on a computer. :-P. Well, now I am back in phoenix. I actually working right now, at one of the job sights that my company is working at. Alex is working with me too, we are hanging out in the theater room. I should go back to work. It's been fun. Real fun.